Utterly Mad

Take this as you will
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I've done things that make me wonder who I really am. Things I am no longer proud of. But I don't look back on these, for what is to be gained from looking on something that only brings me pain now?
No, instead I move forward, step by step, breath by breath. There are things that weigh me down, things I cannot remove from myself, but I continue on. And when the weight becomes too much for me to bear I know there are those I can lean on.
I've made mistakes, but I do not dwell on them for I have little use for those memories other then to remind me of things I should not do. Believe me, I've made mistakes that I wish I could change, turn back the clock. Mistakes that I wish I could pay any price to change. But as with life I must continue onward and move forward, for life gives a man only a single chance in the moment.
So here I stand, in front of another challenge to climb, another hilltop to reach. And as I step forward the weight I carry settles on my shoulders, heavier then when I was climbing the last hill. But I know there are those who will stand with me, those who will aid me in this, and those people who do have my grattitude.
Life demands we carry on, or pay a toll. I choose to carry on, for the toll is too hefty for me to pay.